if i could reach out and touch you
and make sure you're real
if you could experience
just half of what i feel
if i knew you thought of me
you'd erase all of my fears
and i know that for a second,
the world would disappear.
if just once you'd tell me
i'm enough to be beloved
if you lingered longer when
our eyes pass over eachother
if i could deserve to be
held against your chest
i know that for once, finally
my leaden heart could rest.
but i can't, and i don't,
and it can't, and you won't
and forever i'll remain
some ugly girl you knew of once
and never saw again.